No request, but a comment to you mentioning getting over the guilt of what you put your girlfriend through. I know guilt very well. Guilt & a bad conscience have been my lifelong companions & what I learned is: I am not responsible for the rest of the world. Even if this "world" is someone I love. As long as I do everything I can & try to be as honest as I can, I am not guilty of having caused pain maliciously. Hence no guilt. I still feel it. But I know better & that helps. Hope it helps u2. xx
Thank you for your insights. I know I never meant to hurt my ex-girlfriend. It was like being in a relationship with three parties: the two of us, and my depression, which sat awkwardly on every couch, in the back seat of every car, lay in bed with us every night. How often I’d wish for just one day where we could just be us, and not have to talk about my depression, but it followed me everywhere. I loved her so much, but all the love in the world is not enough to make mental illness go away. In the end I am grateful that I was able to feel her love for as long as I did, and for the amazing support she gave me. I don’t think that guilt will ever go away, but I know I did the best I could at the time. We all do.
I’ve been trying to be more diligent with the directory page, keeping it updated after every new page. I realise that a lot of people navigate to the comic from this page, so I think it’s important. Please feel free to shoot me a message if I forget - it’ll take me a little while to get into the habit, but I will get there.
You seem like an extraordinary person. I wish I could meet you in person and just have endless amounts of conversation with you about things. Alas, we are literally half a world apart. Haha. Nonetheless, I hope today finds you well. Take care of yourself, you deserve all the love and respect in the world.
You speak such kind words. Thank you. I’m sure we would have meandering conversations well into the morning hours. I think the world is full of interesting people with stories to share, and I love meeting them. I hope you have beautiful people in your life to share your conversations with. Remember if you ever want to talk I am here.