I DO NOT HAVE AN EATING DISORDER - Page 35
I feel like a dunce when it comes to being totally unable to read my body’s signals. At times it would take me an entire day of feeling uncomfortable before someone would mention to me that perhaps I might be hungry. It felt horribly human to think I was so much at the mercy of my physical self - and thoroughly embarrassing to be in my twenties and not know how to recognise and respond to hunger, a skill that most pick up by toddlerhood. Furthermore, the fact that hunger was a constant recurring issue was entirely frustrating. I felt like I was being pestered by a whiny child all day. This of course led to guilt about having such a first-world problem: I’m hungry, have ample food available, yet don’t want to/can’t be bothered eating. Woe is me. Oh, look at all my feelings!