I DO NOT HAVE AN EATING DISORDER - Page 67
The decision to buy scales was not an easy one to make (nor a particularly clever one in my situation, but it was an act of desperation) and was largely motivated by my need to bring my breasts back to what I considered a manageable size. I justified it by telling myself that this was for my health - that the boob issue was making me so anxious and emotionally unstable, that it would be safer overall to just weigh myself for a while and get down to a slightly lower weight where I felt more in control. I told myself that I’d be able to stop after just a few kilos and put the scales away, but even in my mind I knew that wasn’t really true. I think I picked up and put down those scales at least a dozen times, circling the aisle, pretending to look at different brands and other items, when really I was just having an intense internal dialogue.
In the interest of absolute crystal clarity, I do not recommend anyone with disordered eating own scales or weight themselves regularly. It will only drive you further into your own head.