I DO NOT HAVE AN EATING DISORDER - Page 68
I was really, really not keen on therapy. I expected I’d have to talk about food and exercise, and given that I still didn’t feel like I had an ED, I wasn’t sure what I’d even say. In the end I told myself that she was here to help, that this was still my choice, and the best chance she had of helping me (and I had of getting something useful out of the sessions) was to just be as honest as I could. That may not sound like a big deal, but you have to understand that the temptation to lie to my treatment team was constant and at times overwhelming. I just wanted to gain back some control over my body, and I felt I could get that if I pretended to be eating or feeling better than I actually was. I’m glad I still managed to get over that instinct and remain honest.