I DO NOT HAVE AN EATING DISORDER - Page 020
Part of what was so challenging about this was that neither my girlfriend nor I really knew how to talk about my body. She was essentially silenced because any comment on my body, no matter how positive, would lead me thinking in all kinds of paranoid ways, yet by not saying anything my mind was given free reign to come up with all manner of horrible (completed unfounded) reasons for her silence. It was so conflicting to be terrified of hearing any (perceived) judegment about my body, yet desperate for any kind of acknowledgement. We’ve come a long way, but I know we are still learning.